IN OKC

Today I arrived in OKC. It was some what a bitch to get to the hotel. We had stopped for directions and a nice guy had showed us the way to the hotel. When we arrived at the hotel it was a nightmare. First off, there is a pool but no water in it. I was like WTF because when I called before booking I had asked about the pool. They should of told us that there will be no water in it. I let that slide. Then we settled in the room and turned on the AC. For around 45 minutes the AC was not blowing cold air. I had called the front desk and they had said they will send a repair man to fix it. 25 minutes later no repairman. Kyle had went to the front desk and the front desk man said he had already been to the room. The door has been open the whole time and he never came by. I waited and called the front desk and kinda got snippy with them and said if they don't wanna fix the AC then switch rooms. FINALLY the repairman came and switched AC's. Now it is NICE in here. finally.

Thanks to Tiffy, I got my tongue ring back in. Grant it it is pink but I don't care. I had to force it in because it was starting to close. It kinda hurt but not much. Thanks Tiffy for the tongue ring.

Kyle just does not understand on how much I care for family. Tiffy and the kids are apart of my family. The month that Kyle was here was bad. Both on Tiff and Kyles ends. I understand on both ends on their points of view. I wasn't really happy for that month because I was being torn in a thousand directions. I was in the middle of all the drama and I was just quiet. I felt that if I open my mouth I would hurt someone and I never want to hurt anyone. Tiffany has always been there for me no matter what. After getting back from the hospital when Kyle was in there, Kyle and I have gotten a lot better on communicating. Grant it I know I was feeling the frustration on both ends, meaning Kyle and everyone around me. I felt a lot of negativity . I hate being an impath you pick up everything around me. But, that is me and I just blocked the other energies around me. It hurt me that I hurt both Kyle and Tiffany. I had tried to explain to Kyle how much I love my family sometimes he just don't listen. It just does not click with him. I do appreciate everything Tiff and Jimmy has done for me. Apart of me feels I want to take the chance with Kyle and see what it leads. I know he does love me and I deff. love him. He jokes a lot and gets him in trouble. He needs to calm down on the jokes. I want so bad to have an awesome family with Tiff and Kyle happy together. I have a feeling it won't happen. To be honest, I see too much similar characteristics in them that will butt heads all the time. It just hurts me a lot.

Kyle is passed out on the bed. He is listening to Tech N9ne. I know I can't wait for the experience in San Diego. I know I will have a lot of experience there that I will not experience anywhere else. The thing is, I feel safe with Kyle. When everyone left and we got back from McDonalds, he had put his arms around me and told me he is glad that I am with him because he loves me very much. I almost saw tears in his eyes. It felt like he was holding back the tears. He wasn't going to just show it with me. Do you know how much feeling I got that from him saying that. It was the feeling he was not lieing and he was not bull shitting me. I almost cried.

I am going to get off of here and go cuddle with Kyle. I love cuddleing with him it feels like when I cuddle with him that all the worries disappear and everything is ok in my life. Well, have a great night Blogspot and viewers.

Until Next Time,
Peace.